Welcome to 2016 everyone!! Ahhhh….. the first Monday of a new year. Although it is just another day, there can be something incredibly symbolic about a new year. The chance for a fresh start, a new outlook, a clean slate…. or for some, the simple peace of mind that comes with leaving 2015 in the past. Personally I fall into the latter. I can honestly say that 2015 was one of the hardest years of my life. It was an extremely difficult year filled with obstacles and hardships that affected my self confidence, my marriage, my relationships with family and friends, my love for myself and my general state of happiness. I was constantly stuck between being angry about the past or wasting my time worrying about the future. It was although I spent an entire year completely disconnected from who I truly am. Mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally I was broken. Fortunately, sometimes the breakdowns in life are where the breakthroughs happen. It was as if falling apart gave me the ability to rebuild myself how I truly knew I was meant to be all along. I honestly felt like one morning I just woke up and thought to myself “This is not who I am, and this is now how I want to live my life” Anyways, I’m not going to go into details about the challenges I faced, because I want to focus my energy on moving forward, not back. So here I am.
So for this new year I decided to steer clear of all typical new years resolutions. Come on…. I already know how to eat healthy, stay active, save money and be kind to others. What I forgot though, was how to be kind to myself. I lost sight of who I was. So I decided to pick ONE word for 2016. One word that is with me everyday as a reminder of what I want for 2016. My one word is Align. I don’t just want to be mindful and aware of my thoughts. I also don’t just want to be present in the moment. I want to be in alignment. I want every thought AND moment to be in alignment with who I want to be and who I truly am. Do my friendships align with the type of person I want to be? Does my lifestyle align with my fitness and health goals? Do my actions align with the type of person I want to be? Do my word align with the type of mother I want to be? Align. Or maybe just back in alignment. Because just being me is the easiest resolution to make…..and keep.
Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.~ J.K Rowling